I want you to experience the riches of your salvation: the Joy of being loved constantly and perfectly. You make a practice of judging yourself based on how you look or behave, or feel. If you like what you see in the mirror, you feel a bit more worthy of My Love. When things are going smoothly and your performance seems adequate, you find it easier to believe you are My beloved child. When you feel discouraged, you tend to look inward so you can correct whatever is wrong. instead of trying to “fix” yourself, fix your gaze on Me, the Lover of your soul. Rather than using your energy to judge yourself, redirect it to praising Me. Remember that I see you clothed in My righteousness, radiant in My perfect love.Jesus Calling: Enjoying Peace in His Presence by Sarah Young (July 13)
I badly needed to hear this passage today. I wrote a couple of times about a relative being hospitalized for mental health issues recently. This issue is still occurring. Over the past couple of days, they’ve taken a turn for the worse. They usually call me several times a day, and often they call while I am working. When I didn’t hear from them today, I tried to call. The phone system is horrible at this facility. While going down the list of numbers, I reached their social worker. I found out they weren’t doing so well and that it was not a good day to talk.
As I find myself in this situation, I am beating myself for not being more supportive. I answer the phone every time the relative calls. But it’s usually to tell them that it’s a bad time to talk and ask if they could call back during a specific time frame. Even though I have to work, I feel like a giant turd for having to tell them this. I’ve been asking myself why I can’t just say some magic words that will let them feel comforted. I did read to them from the bible, and they did feel better. The comfort doesn’t last long. I have been through this kind of mental health crisis personally. And sometimes, nothing anyone tried to say to comfort me helped. I couldn’t hear it through my illness. All of this crisis makes me retreat inward when I should be reaching out to Him, who loves me unconditionally even when I don’t think I deserve it.
I reached out today with the Calling Jesus daily passage. He told me what I needed to hear, and I am still sad for the situation yet comforted and optimistic that we can all get through this.